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...I know I gave a rant like this last year but it's always the same for what's coming. I know my birthday isn't until the 12th of next month but I always try to plan in advance. For this year I thought since time and time again I've learned not to expect any thing of others, why not try my best to do some thing extra special for myself. Go on a vacation. Good idea huh? Except I can't afford it. I've looked into the cost and so have a few people around me on my behalf. Even the cheapest of hotels costs too much. This has been a big thing driving me for wanting commission work lately is wanting to be able to afford this. One of my friends has commissioned me as I sure those of you that follow my work have noticed. But nothing seems to please him. And he explained to me the other night why he's being picky with my work but that leaves me questioning every thing I do for the work. So much so, I asked him to mark where he wants changes done to the art for me to alter them. I've been waiting days on wanting to hear back on this. In the mean time the clock is still ticking down to the 12th. ..I think if I hear back from him it might come too late. I finish the work and that will be almost on top of the deadline. I'll have no time to plan and prepare. Which makes one think what else could be done on that day if not treating your self to a much needed vacation? Well the normal thought would be do some thing like go out to a movie. The fault with this is I've already seen what I want to. You see last year I went to see the Hobbit. During the show, people right behind me decided they'd made it a goal to be the worse theater patrons you've ever witnessed. They spoiled the whole movie with their actions to the point of after the show I told AMC's management about them. The management then gave me a ticket good for any normal showing of a film from then to '14, as compensation for my bad experience. Having Flixster on my iPod, I looked to upcoming movies to decide what I'd use my ticket on. I picked that I'd watch Star Trek 12 when it came out. ..Which I got to see for free in a preview audience the other night in 3D. Great film but now that still leaves me with not knowing what to do with what's coming up. The friend commissioning me said that if the vacation couldn't happen why not go to the spa. That's an idea I've had for treating my self since some point in my twenties . Yet another thing I know I can't afford because I've worked out the numbers on that idea more than once. So what can I do ? ..Every year this gets worse and worse. Nothing will beat my 29th on this note even though birthdays since have come darn close to beating it in horribleness.